They'd known each other for over ten years. First as friends, then best friends and then, more than just friends. In the years they spent together, she fell in love. There was no one moment that could be pinpointed as - yes, that's when she fell in love. It was slow, gradual and once in a life time love. Their friendship was a gradual progression, from friends who hang out, catch movies to friends who hang out, catch movies and share intimacies together. It was never questioned. Love was never said aloud. It was natural. No promises. no stereotypical definitions. Just two friends, one in love, one not.
Then he moved away. It was new. Not being present in person. They never knew how to talk, in person or over the internet. Their love was quiet, silent and brooding. It was never said aloud. With oceans separating them, she knew it was trouble. Yet, she had faith. She had given him the best years of her life, supported him and loved him through thick and thin. She knew his worst secrets and still loved him. He treated her shabbily, forgot to call her when he promised. She waited still, for she knew, his life was demanding, he was famous. Everyone wanted a piece of him.
It wasn't like they hadn't slept together. They had, for she could never refuse him. That was her love, naivety sure, but love was most of it. With him gone, she knew no other way to bond with him. Their relationship was based on those little fleeting touches, the forbidden moments stolen in his room, the quiet coffee around the corner. He was her best friend. She knew she could tell him anything. She'd never be judged. Together they had faced life changing problems, together, they had survived a heart wrenching decision. He knew her inside and out.
Yet, there were no words. No love said out loud, no need described. Words ran thin, deep and unsaid.
She knew then, he never loved her. But yet she did anyway. She thought the world of him. He was her Superman. But she knew, he didn't love her, and yet, she never stopped loving him.
Then one cold night, his sunny day, they spoke about their carnal needs. He asked for something. she answered in kind, yet another unspoken agreement. Internet, the evil magician, it brought them closer and yet pushed them further apart. The ups and downs, they survived, were there no longer. The road was smooth and straight till the eyes could see. They had a pattern, an unspoken pact agreed upon. They had found a middle road.
Then one December morning, she woke up thinking of him, needing him. And she asked for it. For her world was only lit by him, she wanted no other. And that turned her life upside down. Women never ask for it. Women, not in a clear relationship, never ask for it. Women never fall in love. Women fall in love but, never ever ask for it. She asked for it. Worst yet, she asked for it, from him, they were oceans apart.
And bang!! He shunned her. She said it out loud, broke their unspoken pact. She said the words. She deserved to be punished. She knew he wouldn't tell the world. Her dignity was still safe. But he despised her, for her, the entire world eluded her. Why? Because she asked. She broke a promise, an unsaid promise, but a promise indeed. She lay there, crying, for she knew, a piece of her heart was lost forever..
She smiled for the world, but her heart lay in pieces, for he shut her out. She knew no way in. She knew no way away. All she did was lay there and cry, for her quiet, silent and brooding love. For it may have been quiet, shy and brooding, but it was her love, the only kind of love she ever knew...
Then he moved away. It was new. Not being present in person. They never knew how to talk, in person or over the internet. Their love was quiet, silent and brooding. It was never said aloud. With oceans separating them, she knew it was trouble. Yet, she had faith. She had given him the best years of her life, supported him and loved him through thick and thin. She knew his worst secrets and still loved him. He treated her shabbily, forgot to call her when he promised. She waited still, for she knew, his life was demanding, he was famous. Everyone wanted a piece of him.
It wasn't like they hadn't slept together. They had, for she could never refuse him. That was her love, naivety sure, but love was most of it. With him gone, she knew no other way to bond with him. Their relationship was based on those little fleeting touches, the forbidden moments stolen in his room, the quiet coffee around the corner. He was her best friend. She knew she could tell him anything. She'd never be judged. Together they had faced life changing problems, together, they had survived a heart wrenching decision. He knew her inside and out.
Yet, there were no words. No love said out loud, no need described. Words ran thin, deep and unsaid.
She knew then, he never loved her. But yet she did anyway. She thought the world of him. He was her Superman. But she knew, he didn't love her, and yet, she never stopped loving him.
Then one cold night, his sunny day, they spoke about their carnal needs. He asked for something. she answered in kind, yet another unspoken agreement. Internet, the evil magician, it brought them closer and yet pushed them further apart. The ups and downs, they survived, were there no longer. The road was smooth and straight till the eyes could see. They had a pattern, an unspoken pact agreed upon. They had found a middle road.
Then one December morning, she woke up thinking of him, needing him. And she asked for it. For her world was only lit by him, she wanted no other. And that turned her life upside down. Women never ask for it. Women, not in a clear relationship, never ask for it. Women never fall in love. Women fall in love but, never ever ask for it. She asked for it. Worst yet, she asked for it, from him, they were oceans apart.
And bang!! He shunned her. She said it out loud, broke their unspoken pact. She said the words. She deserved to be punished. She knew he wouldn't tell the world. Her dignity was still safe. But he despised her, for her, the entire world eluded her. Why? Because she asked. She broke a promise, an unsaid promise, but a promise indeed. She lay there, crying, for she knew, a piece of her heart was lost forever..
She smiled for the world, but her heart lay in pieces, for he shut her out. She knew no way in. She knew no way away. All she did was lay there and cry, for her quiet, silent and brooding love. For it may have been quiet, shy and brooding, but it was her love, the only kind of love she ever knew...
